I love our staff.

Now on that note, a few people are already aware of my thoughts on the subject. But let's make one thing clear; I deserved to be suspended if you really cared to enforce the rules. I mean really I did. A lot of the things I get away with posting were far worse than this particular story, but the point still stands that some moral or conductive boundary was crossed and oh yes I certainly did.

But riddle me this; why now? Why bust my ass for a story that isn't even close to the worst thing I've gotten away with posting here? That while there are people who get offended, there were never enough of them to start blatantly reporting the thread that would start some contentious issue that needed to be addressed in the first place? And if there was, then why didn't the staff address said conflict? Hell, I saw people who said it was vulgar and obscene, but it wasn't terrible enough to warrant such punishment ACCORDING TO THEM. Not myself.

And we must take into consideration the person who managed to suspend me in the first place. That's really the issue I have here. If you people want to slap me on the wrist and tell me to stop, get somebody else please. Don't get somebody who's going to punish me for something that she manages to get away with so frequently. And that's what has gotten a few people talking in the pipeline. It wasn't so much that my suspension was unjust, but with the person in question suspending me, it shows an ugly double standard that's still persisting among our staff and community.

I can at least take solace in the fact that what I offend people with is indirect. With whatever horrifying stories or anecdotes I post, I'm generalizing and not targeting specific people. Whereas while I'm getting suspended, said person who decided to carry out administrative justice is spamming the chat thread with lyrics while being allowed to get away with blatant sexual harassment of specific users. Even in a lovely IM conversation "What? Am I not allowed to have fun?" If it's at the direct expense of specific people who either object to it or find it irritating, hell to the fuck no you aren't. A pinnacle of professionalism, don't you think? I'm no longer on the staff, but heaven forbid I can imagine what kind of discussion took place behind those closed doors.

"BUT DEOXIC, WHAT ABOUT PEOPLE YOU BLATANTLY HARASS?" I do that in IMs, not on NS2. If they want to block me or stop me, it's entirely within their power to do so. If it's not on NS2, then it's not in your jurisdiction now is it? I can post the conversations there and people can be horrified by it, but that's not taking place in the thread and the content in and of itself is what should be called into question, not the act of doing it outside the place. Again, not excusing my actions because I know they're appalling. But again consider that I, I in specific am getting busted for this even though a hell of a lot of people get away with it as well, including people who are in more... viable positions than I am.

So if I need to be punished, then go on ahead and carry it out. Just don't use me as a tool to demonstrate that:

#1 - You people are still lax on the rules within the staff.
#2 - That favoritism still exists among the staff.
And #3 - That there's still clearly a double-standard in conduct for behavior taking place here.

I guess in a clever way I can be used as an ironic fallacy in the how the community is still functioning so poorly. Hell, that works; it makes it seem like I planned it all along. And "ironic fallacy" has a nice ring to it, even though it probably doesn't mean a damn thing. Now if you have anything to say, then drop me a PM and I'll promptly take time away from my busy day of appalling people to tell you to go blow somebody.